I've made a huge mistake. I'm sorry.
As you can see from the post dates, it's been a few weeks since I last updated. I figured I'd try and test it. I carried on with life. I tried to wind down. I tried to get away from it all. But no. It's still here, and all I did was piss it off. It started earlier today. It was standing there today when I got off the bus. In plain daylight. I did my best to ignore it. I walked home. It was outside the back window. Later I took out the trash, and when I came back, it was staring at me from inside the house. Taunting me. A half hour ago it was outside my bedroom window, staring at me with its faceless... face. I don't need to see eyes or a mouth. It's pissed.
It's staring over my shoulder as I write. I'm not looking back. I'm too terrified. I can feel it there, watching my every move. It has me right where it wants me.
I'm so sorry.
But it wants something from me. And I'm enough of a coward to give it what it wants. In fact, there's only one thing it wants and I've already given it that.
Attention. It wants your attention, and I've given it away. You have to understand. If I didn't, it would kill me right now. Or worse. I'm so sorry. Because now it's got you right where it wants you too. Please forgive me.
Sincerely,
Alexander.
I'm so sorry, Alexander. There's no reason you should have to deal with this.
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There's no reason anyone should have to deal with this... But He exists, and there's nothing we can do. I am glad that someone outside the situation is taking action though. It's comforting to know there's someone somewhere willing to take me in if I should need it.
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